So August has finally begin.

Saying goodbye to Harry Potter for the final time, goodbye to my high school friends and this carefree life.

August is shopping, buying, ordering, packing. August is trying to keep my brain together for another 21 days before I’m off to Alfred. My biggest fear for college isn’t that I’m not going to do well in my classes or anything like that. My biggest fear is that I’ll be just as lonely as I have been in high school. But knowing a few people, I think, will help. I already know Monica and I are in the same dorm, but we aren’t really great friends or anything like that. There’s still Tristan’s friend, as well as "Engineering Man" who I haven’t met yet, but we have talked via Facebook and IM.

I also talked to my roommate for the first time last night. I think it’s safe to say that my list of roomie fears (whore, druggie, party girl, fundamentalist Christian, etc.) are useless now. About midway through the conversation I realized that she was indeed, my long lost twin. I’ve heard horror stories about your first roommate on AU, how it’s not too unlikely that you get the roommate from hell first semester. If last night’s conversation was anything to go by, I don’t think that’s going to happen. At least I hope not!

I’m exceedingly nervous, but at the same time, so exhilarated. I’ve only wanted to get out of this pathetic town since the day I was born. Of course, I’m going to an even smaller town, but this is completely different. No one knows who I am. No one can judge me just by hearing my name. I can finally shake off all this high school shit, get away from the label that’s been pounded into me. (Though embracing it has lead me to some fun times: "I’m a loser? Okay. I’m gonna be the best damn loser you’ve ever seen!") Finally, I can be who I want instead of being who others expect me to be.

"Keshite RIRAITO shite"

Or,

"Erase and Rewrite"